Christmas time…one of my favorite times of year.
It really is. Always has been. I have wonderful childhood memories of Christmas. Even though we didn’t have much growing up, I remember our Christmases being so much fun. Lots of wonderful times with family. Creating new traditions for our own family after Chris and I were married took on a whole new meaning. They weren’t just traditions. They were values and memories that we wanted our children to carry on into their own families some day.
I have been looking at pictures this week of the past 19 years of Christmases that we had together. I’m thankful for the memories we created for our children together. Some of them are funny, some were even kind of stressful, some were amazing times with extended family, some were restful, all of them sweet in their own way. Especially now, they carry a sweetness that I’m so thankful for.
A little over 8 months ago Christmas 2012 seemed like an eternity away. Now it is here. Emphasis on family makes this holiday difficult…just like any other I suppose. Other suffering is also brought to our attention at this time of year…many children are going hungry, many families have no money for gifts, and there are many more families like us, that are missing a father, mother, husband or maybe a child, brother, sister, friend, etc… With that in mind, this time of year can end up the most difficult, for those of us suffering loss.
I am stubborn. I know, not always a good character quality to have, and it does cause me some problems sometimes but in this case I think it’s good. I’m going to use it for good anyway. I’m determined that we are not going to wallow in self-pity. First of all I know Chris would not want that, and second of all, self-pity is just depressing and we all know how I do not like to be depressed :-).
I’m well aware that this Christmas is going to be hard, really hard. Chris is going to be missed terribly. But at the same time we are going to start some new traditions. I’m not sure what they will all be yet, but I’ve been mulling it over, talking with friends and discussing with the kids.
And I know we can do this. Not because we are going to grit our teeth and be determined, though that is part of it, but ultimately because at this time of year..more than any other time of year, that Hope that we are clinging to, is celebrated.
“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”
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