My ways…

…are higher declares the Lord Isaiah 55:8-9

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Five years

Not a very original title for a blog, but it was the thought that came to mind today as I remembered tomorrow’s date.  As I try to wrap my mind around the weird concept of time…like, “where has it gone and how can it seem so short and so long at the same time?” I’m …

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“YOU are my hope and victory…”

Where have the last 8 months gone? Time flies when you are not weighed down with the burden of grief. How gracious the Lord has been. So that’s my excuse for not keeping up with my blog :-). One of the highlights in my life the past year has been the body of believers that Paul and …

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Do we have to be sad?

Upon waking up the morning of March 1st Emma asked me what month it was and was March “Daddy’s month?” I was actually surprised she remembered and we talked about how sometimes the feelings of sadness are just there, but in the midst of them we can remember how much we have to be thankful for, and …

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Familiar, but different….

At a church family meal this evening an older couple asked Paul and I how long we had been married.  4 months.  They had been married 49 years.  It feels weird to be considered a “newly wed” at this point in my life.  Both Paul and I have plenty of marriage “experience” but yet it’s only …

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“…and clothed me with gladness.”

There is nothing like moving that causes every corner of your house to be exposed, every flaw glaring and memories brought to the surface.  I’ve been wondering how I would react to leaving the home that Chris and I shared for over 9 years.  That’s how it is with grief…you just wait to see what will …

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We all know that feeling of….

‘Melancholy’.  It is separate from ‘sadness’.  The concept of ‘sadness’ implies grief and a certain hopelessness, while ‘melancholy’ implies a sorrow with purpose.  A sadness that has hopefulness melted into it.” Last night,  friends celebrated with me, my upcoming wedding.  Most of those friends there were attendants or attended my first wedding.  Just simply amazed at …

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Purple folder days….

I live in a small town.  I drive by the funeral home almost every day.  I cannot count how many times over the last 3 years that I have watched someone walk out of the funeral home with their “purple folder”.   Every time I see it I pray for that person.  My heart hurts …

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God has planned the circumstances that has molded our lives to this point…..

I truly believe this.  God’s sovereignty in my life has become a comfort that I do not doubt. Most of my readers know that I became engaged to Paul Marks January 21st.  This event was preceded by a wonderful man (that would be Paul :-)) coming into my life and slowly weaving his way into my …

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It’s a skill and I think we are learning it…..

joy and sorrow.   I’m not quite sure how this skill was developed or has been developing…the human heart is quite complex in its ability to be deeply grateful for the good we experience daily and simultaneously mourn loss and brokenness. I have had some conversations with a few of my kids concerning this topic. …

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Children and grieving…..

is a very complicated process. Parent/teacher meeting was last week for the 8 year old.  Wow. I was so encouraged.  We seem to be back in the normal curve with academics and wanting to be there and actually liking school again.  Yes, an eight year old can shut down from grief..and she did.  My heart sings …

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