Monthly Archives: June, 2012
Warning, this is not pretty, not “spiritual”, it just is what it is.
So, I believe it’s here. This depression that has been lurking for the last month. I’ve been dreading it, pushing it back, ignoring it. But it’s here, I can no longer avoid it. I hate feeling depressed. Hate it more than anything I can think of. My husband struggled with depression most of our married …
Kind of random
I kind of feel like I have been all over the map emotionally this week. It has been particularly difficult. I’m not even sure this post will have a consistent thought. Had to pick out my husbands headstone this week. That was difficult. You know how weird it is to show the drawings …
Grief is bi-polar
It’s true. And it’s annoying, frustrating and can be despairing. Just when I think I’m making progress the waves of grief threaten to drown me again. Yesterday was a good day. I think I could almost say that I did not feel the ache in my chest. There were no tears. It was a full …
another “holiday” done
I know that sounds kinda depressing, but I can honestly say I am relieved to be finished with this day. Since Chris died the kids and I have emotionally plowed through 3 holidays….our anniversary, Chris’s birthday and Fathers Day. I am not a very creative person so it’s difficult to come up with memorable things to do. …
Justice, in this life?
I think I’m a bit cynical. This topic has come up the past few days in conversation with friends. It is a topic that is discussed a lot between my kids and I. How do you even begin to wrap your mind around the foolishness of some people? Foolishness that comes at a high price. …
Like a lost limb
in doing a little bit of googling on marriage, this is what I came up with : “Marriage is the process by which two people who love each other make their relationship public, official, and permanent.” those words just seem so…blah, to describe what marriage really is. I think I would say something like…”the blending …
Why?
Everyone asks God at one time or another, Why? Even if you understand and believe in Gods sovereignty, there are times when you just want to know why. The Bible is full of men and women asking God why. We are desperate to understand why bad things happen to good people. To me, this is …
A New Normal
I’ve decided to start a blog. I know, original huh? Honestly though, it is easier than writing in a journal..I’m likely to be more faithful. So this endeavor is for myself, for my children and for all of you out there that are dying to hear what I have to say :-). You see, 12 …
My ways... 