Monthly Archives: September, 2012
just one more time…
I would love to hear his voice just one more time. After only 6 months I’m having a hard time remembering what his voice sounded like. For days after he died, I called his phone over and over just to listen to his voice on his voice-mail. Then his company disconnected his phone. That was a …
Halfway to…….
something. Not sure what, but today seems like a huge accomplishment in my mind. I couldn’t tell you how I got here, but I’m here. I look outside…it’s beautiful out. If he was here I would have suggested a walk on this beautiful day. At first he would have tried to convince me to stay …
it’s always there
that empty feeling. I looked up loneliness to get the exact meaning: “Loneliness is an unpleasant feeling in which a person feels a strong sense of emptiness.” Yeah, it’s definitely unpleasant, almost painful. I have people around me all the time but yet I still feel this emptiness…it’s pervasive. The temptation is strong to withdraw and wallow …
a teensy bit of closure and maybe a bit of light up ahead?
I am feeling a bit more like myself. It’s hard to believe this is even possible barely six months after the death of Chris. I almost feel guilty…almost. Relieved is probably a better way to describe it. It’s difficult to describe how one feels after the death of a loved one. Numb, confused, forgetful, sad, …
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